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So much to say.... [14 Sep 2010|10:34pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

Sometimes....turning to livejournal to vent a little ..HELPS>    I have been dreaming of Lauren for the past three nights..  The first were she was there but she wasn't saying a word to me.  I was just trying to get to her.  But last night...It was me and her- I was expected her not to say anything me then out of nowhere she was talking to me like old times   My dream self bursted into tears cuz i knew she was gone but I forgotten how her voice sounded...I cried to her how I missed her and how I wanted to talk to her and be with her.  She sat with me and told me to be happy and she loved me.  It felt so real...       You know you give yourself excuses to why its hard right now...why you miss her the most today...really you will miss them forever.  I know I'm going to always have the urge to text her to tell her about my day or vent about my life ....n I'm always going to have to tell myself over and over again that I can't ...that when people die--they really are gone     All I have are my dreams.. random nights where I meet with her to tell her about my life and cry to her about everything.  I almost like to think that she is coming to me when she knows I need to talk to her (hah)  Still doing her best friend duties in my dreams <3        

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conclusion. [28 Sep 2009|09:36pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

The stressful days are the weekdays..  it deeply sucks when everyone you need on those hard days are far away...   

this is going to be a hard year.

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week of summer. [11 May 2009|12:40pm]
[ mood | plus sick... ]

ear infection that is killing
NEW DESK that sam went and got for me cuz she loves me! :o)
3 birthdays!  cousin/sam/katie
seeing my bfffffffffffffffffff LAUREN
golfing with my madre
seeing kevin everyday
hanging with meghan and nick
ending it with seeing the best cousin in the world and her baby!!!! :o)


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beautiful song. [05 May 2009|10:27pm]
Touched by all of your grace
The only one to see my other face
Is it too much to ask of you
To stay inside with me?
Is it too much to ask of you
To keep me alive?

It's my jealousy creepin' up on me
Just me jealousy creepin' up on me
Fortunes could fall upon your kiss
Everyones a suitor i could miss

Is it to much to ask of you
To stay inside with me?
Is it to much to ask of you
To keep me alive?

It's my jealousy creepin' up on me
Just me jealousy creepin' up on me
Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah

No this jealousy won't get to me
No this jealousy won't get to me

You set me free
Your love set me free
You put your armor on me
You put your armor on me
You put your armor on me
Do you feel like your falling down

thoughts. [29 Apr 2009|06:11pm]
[ mood | dorky ]

Do you think stupid highschool drama follows you after college?  I want to be thirty and flirty hah

"Ethnocentrism" is the tendency to believe that one's own race or ethnic group is the most important and that some or all aspects of its culture are superior to those of other groups.

practice what you preach



watch the movie Black Gold.

Cause it’s easier sometimes
Not to be sincere

i miss my cousin

Brett Dennen- Aint no reason  good song

livejournal is a place to rant about nothing   I have no idea why i use it anymore


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even though we aint got money----i'm soooo inlove with ya hunny! [22 Apr 2009|12:37am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Life-good  most of the times

ending my junior year--i can not believe next year will be my last year and I GRADUATE! then I really have to grow up.. hm
also someone write my 12 page anthro fieldwork paper  and do my history final--thanks!

central this weekend--maybe soaring eagle..this time if i win--i will save it

FML story.
I went to soaring eagle and won 300 dollars. spent some on the weekend--to survive...
on my way back to state--i got my first ticket ever--bye bye winnings... 
haha   BOOOooooooooooooooooOOO

me and kevins 11 months is friday----unbelievable   I feel like its been that long then I feel like it hasnt    which is a good thing--I feel comfortable but it still feels brand new.   :o)      

Opposites attract because they are not really opposites, but complementaries  :o)

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i guess you're just what i needed [24 Mar 2009|11:43pm]
i don't mind you coming here
and wasting all my time
'cause when you're standing oh so near
i kinda lose my mind


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I have this stumble button and this is what I stumbled upon today.. [04 Feb 2009|11:15am]
[ mood | amused ]

How to write a paper in college/university:

1. Sit in a straight, comfortable chair in a well lit place in front of your computer.

2. Log onto MSN and ICQ (be sure to go on away!). Check your email.

3. Read over the assignment carefully, to make certain you understand it.

4. Walk down to the vending machines and buy some chocolate to help you concentrate.

5. Check your email.

6. Call up a friend and ask if he/she wants to go to grab a coffee.  Just to get settled down and ready to work.

7. When you get back to your room, sit in a straight, comfortable chair in a clean, well lit place.

8. Read over the assignment again to make absolutely certain you understand it.

9. Check your email.

10. You know, you haven't written to that kid you met at camp since fourth grade. You'd better write that letter now and get it out of the way so you can concentrate.

11. Look at your teeth in the bathroom mirror.

12. Grab some mp3z off of kazaa.

13. Check your email. ANY OF THIS SOUND FAMILIAR YET?!

14. MSN chat with one of your friends about the future. (ie summer plans).

15. Check your email.

16. Listen to your new mp3z and download some more.

17. Phone your friend on the other floor and ask if she's started writing yet. Exchange derogatory emarks about your prof, the
course, the college, the world at large.

18. Walk to the store and buy a pack of gum. You've probably run out.

19. While you've got the gum you may as well buy a magazine and read it.

20. Check your email.

21. Check the newspaper listings to make sure you aren't missing something truly worthwhile on TV.

22. Play some solitare (or age of legends!).

23. Check out bored.com.

24. Wash your hands.

25. Call up a friend to see how much they have done, probably haven't started either.

26. Look through your housemate's book of pictures from home. Ask who everyone is.

27. Sit down and do some serious thinking about your plans for the future.

28. Check to see if bored.com has been updated yet.

29. Check your email and listen to your new mp3z.

30. You should be rebooting by now, assuming that windows is crashing on schedule.

31. Read over the assignment one more time, just for heck of it.

32. Scoot your chair across the room to the window and watch the sunrise.

33. Lie face down on the floor and moan.

34. Punch the wall and break something.

35. Check your email.

36. Mumble obscenities.

37. 5am - start hacking on the paper without stopping. 6am -paper is finished.

38. Complain to everyone that you didn't get any sleep because you had to write that stupid paper.

39. Go to class, hand in paper, and leave right away so you can take a nap.

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schooool sucks [26 Jan 2009|08:30pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

Florida for spring break!!!!!!
yes! YES! YES!

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bah. [22 Dec 2008|11:08pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

I never promised you a ray of light,
I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday,
I give you everything I have, the good, the bad.
Why do you put me on a pedestal,
I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below,
So help me down you've got it wrong, I don't belong there.

One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
you wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

I always said that I would make mistakes,
I'm only human, and that’s my saving grace,
I fall as hard as I try
So don't be blinded
See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin,
so pull me from that pedestal,
I don't belong there.

One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
you wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

Why you think that you know me
But In your eyes
I am something above you
It’s only in your mind
Only in your mind
I wear a
I wear a
I wear a Halo...

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So this is christmas [19 Dec 2008|03:11pm]
[ mood | tired ]

im sick of this struggle   wondering whats on other peoples mind..  I'm sick of it.  I'm sick of wondering if someone is mad or someone is talkin about me......  im tired...im worn out.   when did it all get like this...    

define a friend for me.
then show me you can be one.

I miss east lansing. I miss my bed. I miss MY HOME.

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i need sleep..I miss sleeep [12 Dec 2008|02:09am]
i hate finals!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one more left!!!

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i need a vacation... I wish I could afford one *sigh* [12 Nov 2008|01:32am]
[ mood | cranky ]

i hate paying bills...i hate paying rent.  I hate thinking of how to make one meal turn into two meals because I dont have enough money to pay for two separate meals..   I hate being jobless and not having any time to get one.  Volunteering 10 hours a week ....it maybe a good idea in the long run for my future BUT ITS NOT PAYIN MY BILLS.  I hate stressing over exams.. my head hurts  i think i permanently have a headache.   I seriously wish I could spend the rest of my life curled up in my bed in kevins arms. thats it.   fuck my gpa, exams, money, essays, cold weather, BILLS AND everything that causes me extreme stress.  next semester Im goin to kill myself.. i have class mon through thursday all day and some how have to fit in volunteering. Also hopefully cierra gets me a job at Champs, so basically FUCK FUDSHVJKXSBVKBDFSIVBG  Im goin to soaring eagle thursday night with Kevin...i'm only using 5 dollars--maybe I'll win the jackpot! *CROSSES FINGERS*   Also i'm visiting the homeland this weekend--it's been awhile  can't wait to hold my puppies :o) weezie's had some back problems so I must come to his rescue.    note: I literally have no money to buy anyone christmas gifts this year---so uh sorry hugs for everyone

is it thursday night yet?  :o(

P.S. I also hate that its almost two...and im wakin up in like 6 hours to take a stupid exam  FML

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its the sound of your voice... [30 Oct 2008|12:04am]
[ mood | amused ]

You are not alone tonight
Imagine me there, by your side
It's so hard to be here
So far away from you
I'm counting the days
'till I'm finally done
I'm counting them down
Yea one by one
It feels like forever
'til I return to you

But it helps me
On those lonely nights
It's that one thing
That keeps me alive
Knowing that you

Wait for me
Ever so patiently

halloween this weekend=crazy
the boyfriend and I are gonna be hippies because lets be honest... its the easiest thing for us..  Oh how I love my hippie
schools been busy
i volunteer every tuesday and thursday with the Museum---basically work in the building with the artifacts and books.. its pretty sweet what they have hidden away.
Jackie(cousin) ,meg and nick are coming this weekend which shall be exciting--- :o)
thats it.
check ya later

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update on life. [21 Sep 2008|10:29pm]
[ mood | calm ]

dropped my plant bio class cuz whatever fuck it horrible class.
jobless still    i suck at interviews.  waiting on bath and body works to reject me then ill be lookin again bah humbug
boyfriends an hour away but we make it work and it is still going strong.  LOve it
i love my place at state.  even tho im broke and counting my coins to survive lol  
I have gone to one football game so far to  last week and i was miserable ---rained on me and my phone died. :o( got a new one tho   sadly I did not make it from the tailgate of the notre dame game to the stadium... yes waste case  sigh oh well   it was fun for the most part

central next weekend to see the boyfriend for his birthday! :o)

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No camera could ever capture the look in her eyes & the feeling in her heart when she looks at him [10 Sep 2008|01:53pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

Lovers forever...face to face
My city, your mountains
Stay with me stay
I need you to love me
I need you today
Give to me your leather...
Take from me...my lace

And then you took the words right out of my mouth
Oh-it must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you

But this is the way I need to wake
I wake to you
And you never left me
All that I dreamt had been untrue
Open my eyes
I see sky

Oh, oh, oh, oh, you know the way to keep me on my toes
I, I, I will be fine - just say you'll stay forever mine
'Til we fall asleep tonight

Just want to be that someone you weren't lookin for
Some nameless fascination that showed up at your door
And when you're sad and blue my jokes still make you smile
And I could be with you awhile

this is the first day of my life
I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you
But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you
And I’d probably be happy

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a boy like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too

paperweight on my back
cover me like a blanket
mess up my bed with me
kick off the covers
i'm waiting
every word you say i think
i should write down
i don't want to forget
come daylight

the songs that have been on repeat lately for me...  

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my beautiful rescue. [12 Aug 2008|05:29pm]
[ mood | loved ]

I'm inlove.
 thats it.
 I'm happy.

this is real.     Never felt like this...I never want to lose this.

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summer is ending soon...very upsetting. [29 Jul 2008|12:17am]
[ mood | chipper ]

It seems the closer it gets to the end of summer the more stuff keeps piling up on my to do list...really i just wanna sit and do nothing. But sadly i can not because to finish summer classes, work as much possible to get money to survive off of next year..., hang out with my friends a good amount before I don't get to see them as much, shopping for my living arrangements this year--Im moving into my own place and Im sooooo stoked!! Like I'm going to be living on my own and do whatever I want!  I have to get so much, Im so excited!  But I know when i move in i means no more summer and back to class everyday. Also, it means kevin will then live an hour away...  It will be fine though...sad but fine.  He is determined that will be fine and I believe him.  He makes me happy and I love spending my time with him.     :o)

Im moving either the 17th or 18th.
so if you want to hang out or see me or whatever-get a hold of me!!

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you're the only road I know. [13 Jul 2008|01:05am]
[ mood | amused ]

My birthday was amazing. Spent it with amazing people.  Got drunk. had P.F. Changs  everything was lovely.   Kevin got me tigers tickets because I didn't get to go to the one we were suppose to go to with a bunch of people...because I was in the hospital  Im excited--I really wanted to go to a tigers game this year WOOOO   He is great.  better than great. :o)  Also, I got the 18th off for warped tour!!! SOOOoOO excited!



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I really have bad luck with my physical health... [28 Jun 2008|01:50am]
[ mood | sickly ]

long story short....side/tummy pains monday turned into an E.R. visit which turned into cat scans and tests.  lead to extreme pain and many tears with awesome drugs that took me to another world.  Admitted to the hospital on strong drugs there till Thursday with really no idea if i was getting surgery or not.  Came out with knowing I have diverticulitis which is stupid sacks of horrible in my colon that can inflame and cause extreme pain.  Lucky me has this..lucky me had to see a butt doctor to hear im hear youngest patient with this! hah basically I have to eat high fiber diet and hope it doesnt do it again...if it happens a lot more  surgery it is and a chunk of my colon gone... wooo

note hospitals sucks but people visiting me and bringing me flowers is nice and gifts :o)  thanks friends and boyfriend.   Also, thanks MSU for letting me now have 6 weeks to do those papers instead of the week I was suppose to do it.

that was my week of joy...

i have to catch my breath when i see your face,
hear your name or even think of you. because you are exactly
what i've been waiting for my whole life. if this is a dream,
i never want to wake up. i've fallen for you

but everything else in life seems to be on the right track  :o)

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